Stories

OH WANDERER COME HOME

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Copyright J. A. Goggans 2018

A story popped into my head one day after I saw a church sign.

Before I begin, I’ll be honest with you, most church sign sayings drive me crazy. I don’t know what Church signs are like where you live, but in the South Eastern U.S. church signs rarely give useful information. Instead the signs are filled with little sayings and puns that I suppose are meant to be funny. However, they are never as funny as I presume they are meant to be, often off putting to even fellow Christians, and more times than I can keep up with they aren’t even true! For some reason though, I always read them. I especially read the ones I pass most often, which means I read the same annoying sign a dozen times before it’s changed. I don’t intentionally do this, it’s like a train wreck you look even though after you did you might wish you hadn’t. 

This church sign said, with no punctuation:
OH WANDERER COME HOME

But I read it in my mind as,
“Oh, wanderer, come home!” expressed with desperation and longing.

I saw in my mind’s eye a young man leaving his home—a ranch out west many years before highways and cars. He leaves while everyone is sleeping, he leaves no note. He and his things are just gone when everyone wakes.

For years his mother and siblings are always watching for him, sure that he will come back. They go through different stages of grief. Most of them still have hope though it takes different forms in their character. One of the oldest siblings or older friends who helps take care of the family (which I can’t tell) bitterly tells the younger siblings, “He is never coming back!”

I watch in my imagination; the younger siblings grow up. They are a happy go lucky group who never let the woes of the world get them down. They joke instead of complain, but they are capable and responsible. Adventure is in their hearts. They leave home too.

Yet their departure is in opposition to their older brother. They tell their mother everything about the trip.

They tell her, “Good Bye.” They tell her, “We are going find him.” Their is no need to say who ‘him’ is.

Their bitter older relative or friend doesn’t come to see them off. They take this in with uncharacteristic stoicism. They seem to know without spoken words why he isn’t there. Do they still have as much hope for him as they do their long-lost brother?

They go west as everyone who left on journeys to find their way did back then. The home is even emptier now without their joy and hope.

Did the long-lost brother go east? Is that the plot twist? Is the plot twist why he left? Was it just self-centeredness coupled with desire for adventure or did something very dark happen? I can’t see that part of the story. At least I can’t right now.

I saw also what it would be like if he came home on his own from his mother’s imagination. But I did not see if he came home or if the siblings found him.

And I too felt the longing, “Oh, wanderer come home.”

Copyright 2018 J. A. Goggans

 

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Compositions

Joy, Peril, and Eternity

Have you ever wondered if there is a story—an exciting adventure for example—where there was no trouble? No one writes the “happily ever after” part of the story because what’s there to tell? What good story doesn’t have a bad problem for a hero to face? Isn’t that odd that our good stories must have something bad? We never think of problems in real life as an opportunity, yet without the problem would there even be a hero?

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by J. A. Goggans

 

One energy sapping afternoon that had been filled with dread and high adrenaline, I began to ponder if I would be so soul tired if I were motivated by joy instead of fear? My thoughts turned to eternity in Heaven and considered how joy might be what sustains us for eternity. Much like Bilbo, after having unnaturally long life, who can fathom living in eternity without turning into

“too little butter spread over too much bread?”

Fear in the moment of real danger saves us, but over time fear cripples us with weakness. Fear is necessary in a world with peril. Joy, however, strengthens us when we are weak.  In eternity we will no longer have a mortal body that survives through fear and adrenaline response. Could our eternal strength be joy—powerful, pure, perfect joy?

When my son was about two he tripped, as toddlers do. I waited for the inevitable cry, but instead he laughed. As we walked on he clearly was trying to repeat the experience. He began to look for better ways to experience that feeling again by jumping off things.
Everything.
All the time.
He wanted to scare himself. Joy radiates from him and he bounds with energy and sunshine. Is this the foolishness of a child or does this show something of the faith of a child?

I grew up in a home averse to risk. Then I grew up and met risk takers—people who get out of bed because life is full of risk and a little bit of hope. I think I am raising one those people. When I think of peril, I think a bit of my son jumping. But instead of jumping off the deck, its like jumping off a cliff. It is ultimate risk and danger hanging in the balance and there is this moment where you have no idea what will happen that second your feet leave the ground.

As small kids my best friend and I had this theological debate. I said, “If we fell off a cliff in Heaven, we wouldn’t get hurt.” And she would always inform me, “There are no cliffs in Heaven.” She was afraid of heights, so I suppose in her mind horrible cliffs could not possibly be there.

Sometimes I think we look at Heaven like a place where nothing will really happen.
Not something to really look forward to.
A happy place but not motivating.
If you told my little boy he could jump but there wouldn’t be any risk, he might find it a little boring. Maybe he would like it at first but after a while he would look for something else dangerous.

Maybe something in the childhood debate about cliffs makes me ask, “Could eternity be like peril?” Not that it IS perilous, certainly not in a terrible way because Heaven is a place with no tears or pain. Peril would no longer be bad because of the joy strengthening us. Could even peril be redeemed?

Could eternity be a bit like the joy in an adventure story? However, not like any adventure we ever read about because we haven’t read an adventure story without a problem to overcome. Could it be a story of The Happily Ever After, authored by the Hero himself? If so it would not be our best story, it would be a perfect one.

Copyright J. A. Goggans 2018

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Compositions

A Question of Character

I have a hard time imagining different characters in my stories. I have the story line but not always strong differences in characters. I was thinking that maybe that is ok.  I’m not sure that the characters in the Chronicles of Narnia are all that different, and C. S. Lewis is my hero. What really is the difference between Jill and Eustace, Polly and Digory, and Shasta and Aravis?

I was thinking that Jane Austen has great characters. The characters in Emma are all so different and I feel like I know who each of them is. While each of her plots have strong similarities there are significant differences in her heroines Emma Woodhouse and Elizabeth Bennet. While there are certain over laps in different characters between novels there are such a variety of vivid characters that feel so real. It feels as though I have met them.

The difference between Lewis and Austen is that I feel more like I identify with the different questions and choices of the characters of Lewis where as I feel like I am watching all the characters play out in front of me in Austen’s novels.

That got me to wondering, is that why I like most of the movie adaptations of Austen’s novels but am disappointed with the Chronicles of Narnia.  If you cut out change something in Narnia, you mess it all up. If some scenes are cut and a few events changed here and there in an Austen novel, you still have all the lovely characters.

Is it possible to portray the character intricacies like Austen while developing the deep questions and ideas of Lewis?
Copyright 2018 J. A. Goggans

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