Saturday, June 13, 2020
Day 92
Last night I had a dream. Its difficult to describe the dream. I remember having a sense that there was something growing or needing to be added to like a branch or stem except the branch or the stem wasn’t a real branch or real stem it was more like smoke or vapor. It did not grow from the base but was added to from the end and the end always needed more. But it wasn’t as physical thing it was something that was inside a person. It was something real, not tangible like knowledge or character.
I don’t remember the people in the dream but I know that every time I thought of a person, or maybe it was myself, this sense of needing to add and add and add to whatever was already there continued and didn’t stop. It quickly turned into a stress dream where every few minutes I would have this sense of trying to add and add and add but never reaching a fulfillment.
Then at some point I thought of God. And I understood that God was infinite and then I understood that he was therefore complete. I was able to rest. From then on whenever I would have this sense of needing to add and grow and add and add or grow and grow, I would just think but, “God is infinite and therefore complete,” and I was able to rest and not stress in my sleep.
When I think of infinity, I usually think of traveling through the infinity of Outer Space and never reaching the end because it’s infinite. Our journey is never complete so I thought of infinity as incomplete. But really its us finite people who are incomplete. God is complete in all ways. He is complete and infinite perfection and holiness and goodness and righteousness. We can never reach the end of perfection and we are always striving and striving and striving, but in Him, He is infinite and therefore complete, so we can rest.
He is infinite therefore complete.
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